My Conjure Schedule

Heh hem. Tis a bit late given that the con has already started, but here’s where you can find me at Conjure in Brissie:

    Sat 1 pm: Once More With Feeling (Joss Whedon panel)
    Chair: Ron Serduik. Justine Larbalestier, Lucy Zinkiewicz, Nicky StricklandSun 4 pm: The 16-year-old Writing Drill Sergeant
    Chair: Jenny Blackford. Ian Irvine, Anita Bell, Simon Higgins, Justine Larbalestier

    Mon 1 pm: Those were the young years: Juvenilia Readings
    Chair: Rob Hoge. Kim Wilkins, Sean Williams, Justine Larbalestier, Scott Westerfeld

I’m most looking forward to the last panel. I have stuff going back to when I was eleven, but unbeknownst to me my lovely mother has a whole folder of my writings going back to when I was seven or so. She dropped it over last night. And oh my Elvis—it’s hilarious! Seriously, Scott and me was reading it out loud to each other and weeping we laughed so hard.

His juvenilia doesn’t go back so far, but fortunately is also excellent for the making of laughter. Especially the bits that are cleverly coded so his mum couldn’t figure out what he was talking about. I bet Sean and Kim will also have some splutterers. What larks we’ll have!

Me & Scott in Bologna

Philip Stanton, one of the illustrators we met in Bologna, drew me and Scott while I delivered my keynote about “Regional Voice” for The Society of Children’s Book Writers & Illustrators Before Bologna conference. (Scott was up front with me to do the American and Scottish readings; I don’t do accents.)

It’s lovely to have this keepsake of the SCBWI conference (thanks, Philip!). It was my first time teaching creative writing (we taught a workshop on writing synopses) and it turns out that I really enjoy it. I had my doubts because I had to teach back when I was an academic and, well, there are things I have loved more in this life (like fourteen-hour flights in cattle class, for example). Turns out that teaching a roomfull of people who are keen, interested and really want to be there is an enjoyable and inspiring experience. I swear I learned new stuff about writing synopses from all the smart questions we were asked. Thanks for inviting us, Lawrence and Erzsi!

Giving the keynote was also fun. I’d already been thinking a lot about how you write different accents because my Magic or Madness trilogy has Australian and USian characters, but giving the lecture forced me to put my thoughts in some kind of order. It also gave me an excuse to mess about with writing stuff phoenetically. I started by writing how I think I pronounce “can’t”:

    carn’t

How Scott thinks I pronounce it:

    cahn’t

And how I reckon many USians (particularly Midwesterners and Californians) say it:

    caaaaaaaaaaaaan’t

The lecture also gave me an excuse to phoenetically render the Queen of England speaking of her spouse and herself:

    Mah hoosbahnd ahnd Ah

I have always wanted to share that with the world at large. I can die happy now.

Bologna Book Fair

Just back from Bologna (now that was a long journey home via Frankfurt & Singapore—so long our luggage decided to stay iin Frankfurt. Sigh.) Had a wonderful time. Bologna is gorgeous and the food is extraordinary. Truffles! Fresh blood orange juice every morning! I now understand the appeal of fresh mozarella di Bufala . . .

But you all want to know about the book fair, right? It’s totally geared to business. Unlike Book Expo America where you’re overwhelmed by how many books there are—and more particularly how many free books there are—at Bologna I was overwhelmed by how many meetings were going on. Every single stall, no matter how small, was set up with lots of desks, at every single one two people sat across from each other earnestly waving books around, consulting their notes, doing everything they could to sell and/or buy rights to books.

It’s very very intense. I now feel like I know more about the business than ever before. I finally understand what it is that scouts do and how they’re paid! It’s amazing how many middle men there are out there. I also learned all about how they make pop-up books—it takes a whole village in China. I learned that the publishing wisdom that short story collections don’t sell holds everywhere, that everyone—even the French—reckon that French YA books are too preachy and boring, that hardbacks are big in Sweden and non-existent in Brazil. I am dizzy with everything I have learnt!

There were hardly any other authors. I met one the whole time I was there. (Hello, Isobel!) There’s not a lot for us to do at the Fair except be taken out by our publishers and agents. I was entertained by Penguin (who are my US and Oz publishers), and by my Brazilian and French ones. I also went along to dinner/lunch/drinks with some of Scott‘s publishers and thus got to hear about the UK, Finnish, Swedish, Italian, Thai, and German versions of the business. Fascinating.

As authors we weren’t invited to any of the parties and had to crash by trailing along on our publishers’ coat tails. I started to feel weirdly like authors aren’t that important in the publishing scheme things, which is crazy because aren’t we what they’re buying and selling?

On the other hand, there are lots of illustrators who run around with their portfolios ready to wow publishers from all over the world. The illustrator exhibition was breathtakingly good (though sadly there were no exhibitors from the US or Australia) as was the one focussed on Hungarian art. Oh my! Stunning. I’m now desperate—desperate, I tell you—to do an illustrated book.

So if you’re a published author is it worth going?

I think so, but I think it’s most valuable if you’ve had at least a couple of foreign sales so you have publishers to meet with. It also helps if your home publisher is there. I met one author whose publisher wasn’t at the fair and who’d had no foreign sales and they seemed kind of lost and overwlemed. It must be even more overwhelming if you’re not yet published.

As a result of going to Bologna I have a much clearer idea of how my publishers work and who to go to with questions. I now know some of the key people at my Brazilian and French publishers which makes the whole being published in other languages seem less remote and even more fun. I wish I’d been able to meet all my publishers!

I definitely plan to return.

Bologna Blues

Or, you know, Bologna Blisses. Truffle grated on top of everything—even the gelato. Blood orange juice with breakfast every morning. Lots of sexy, stylish people walking around ciaoing one another. Lots of vespas. And so far every one of our foreign publishers has turned out to be lovely. Just as well cause that’s the main thing we’re doing here: meeting and eating.

The Bologna Book Fair is all business all the time. No swags of free books which means it’s not really the place for authors! Each booth is full of tables where the rights people sit and conduct meeting after meeting after meeting til their eyes look ready to dribble out of their skulls. If anything the agents in their hall of agents look even more frazzled. How is it possible to have ten meetings in one day?

I have lots and lots of fabulous news but most of it is embargoed. But as soon as I’m allowed I will spill all.

Web access continues expensive and intermittent. I’ll respond to all the emails/comments etc. when we’re back in Sydney.

Ciao, amici!

Feeling Halfway Human

I am no longer a troll! The phlegm begins to depart! A brand new day!

I’m convinced it was the last few days of wall-to-wall YA author/librarian/bookseller-related activity that returned my health to me. See? Books are good for you and book people, too. Yay!

Today an HSBC courtesy cab zoomed me all the way from Otto’s to dropping my lunch companion off on the upper east side (but not the posh bit, honest) and then across to pick up samples of the new business cards—very fetching, indeed, they are—and then back to the East Village. All in a snug, warm cab, driven by a smart and loquacious driver who used to work for the Children’s Bookstore in Chicago and knew all about the Bologna book fair. Sometimes I adore New York City.

What else? I did a typing test via the lovely Dr E. I type 92 words per minute, though it drops to 56 words per if you want accuracy. Phooey on accuracy. (I believe that’s the first time I have ever used the word “phooey”. I’m proud. Very proud.)

My FAQ is updated as is my bio and various other bits and pieces of my website. Please do have a squiz and point out any problems. I have also added an essay from Daughters of Earth: Mary Papke‘s essay about Pamela Zoline’s story, “The Heat Death of the Universe”. Enjoy!

Posted: NYC, 22 March, 7:36PM.

Through a Brain Foggily

Thursday went to the Bronx Library Centre and got to hang out with some very smart, very interesting teenagers. Hey Melanie! Hey Elizabeth! Hey Rachely! Hey Rachell! Hey Melodie! And hey the girl with the lovely French name that I can’t remember! (Sorry.) And we talked books and writing and Midnighters and Uglies and it were fun.

And just as wonderful was the fact that Carol, who’s (I think) the head of Young Adult Services for the Bronx Library Center, is from Trinidad and loves cricket! So we got to talk about Brian Lara and Dwayne Bravo. A brief cricket moment in the midst of a desert of non-cricketness. Which is why I haven’t mentioned the highest scoring one-day match of all time in which Australia scored 434 and thus had the game in their pockets only to be outscored by South Africa. Holy crap! How is that possible? (And, you know, poor bloody bowlers—must’ve been the flatest, uncrackedest, giving-nothingest wicket of all time.)

But I digress, libraries wonderful, librarians wonderful, teenagers who come to library events wonderful.

That night we caught up with some of our YA novel writing compatriots and talked shop, gossiped, and decided whether trolls are human or not.

Today was the Books of Wonder reading. We read with newly minted superstar, Marcus Zusak, who courtesy of an appearance on Good Morning America, has been at number one or two on Amazon.com since Friday am. Oh my Elvis! He was charmingly overwhelmed by the fuss and the long queue of adult women wanting him to sign Book Thief for them.

Also appearing were Linzi Glass, author of The Year the Gypsies Came who I’d heard all about from Little Red School House librarian, Karyn Silverman, and Sarah Durkee whose middle grade book, The Fruit Bowl Project sounds utterly charming. We were on the girls table together and thus got to natter muchly about this and that. Very genial.

The event was a lot of fun. Always fab to meet new writers and the audience was fabby too. Lots of friends (thanks, guys, for the support!), not to mention all the folks I don’t know. Oh, and it was such a treat recognising these two brothers from Queens who were at our last Books of Wonder event and just as they did then asked smart cool questions. Yay, them.

Best of all, as usual, were the wonderful staff of Books of Wonder. Peter Glassman, the owner, is always fabulous. He’s so genuinely enthusiastic about books for kids and teenagers. It’s infectious. And it’s always a pleasure to hang out with Sara and Elena. Librarians and booksellers = the world’s best people.

So it’s as well we had to run from Books of Wonder to the New York Public Library for the 77th Annual Exhibition of Books for the Teen Age where Chris Crutcher gave the most wonderful speech about censorship and writing for young adults. He is my new hero.

And now I’m crawling into bed to sleep for many, many, many hours.

Posted: NYC, 9:30PM, 18 March

NYC appearances

No rest for the wicked. Here are the details of the NYC leg of the Justine & Scott world tour shamelessly promoting our latest books, Magic Lessons and the third Midnighters Book, Blue Noon. If you’re a teenager you can find us in the Bronx on Thursday. On Saturday we’ll be at Books of Wonder where teenagers and non-teenagers alike can attend.

Hope to see you there!

Thursday 16 March, 4:00 PM
Meet the Authors
Justine Larbalestier & Scott Westerfeld
Bronx Library Center Teen Advisory Group
Bronx Library Center
310 East Kingsbridge Road
The Bronx, New York

Saturday 18 March, Noon-2PM
Great Teen Reads!
Sarah Durkee, Linzi Glass, Justine Larbalestier,
Scott Westerfeld and Markus Zusak
Signing at Books of Wonder
18 W. 18th St
New York, NY

Posted: NYC, 12:12PM, 12 March

Apologies & Updates

Sorry for the silence. My excuses are many and covered in mucus and jetlag. Which led to my inadvertantly consigning a number of thoughtful posts to spam purgatory. My apologies. Please comment again. I hope to be non-mucus laden and competent any day now and am much less likely to nuke future comments.

While I lay sweating, coughing, swelling and dripping mucus, the wonderful Deborah Biancotti was making additons to my website to accommodate the imminent (and in San Francisco, at least, actual) arrival of my second novel, Magic Lessons the sequel to Magic or Madness. Feast your eyes here and here. You can even read the first two chapters. She’s also created a new section for the soon-to-arrive anthology, Daughters of Earth. Thank you, Deb! And thank you, Cat, for designing such a beautiful cover.

Do take a squiz at both and let me know what you think. The Daughters site still has some content to come, but all the design work is done.

The events in San Francisco at Borderlands and Books Inc went very well. Scott was a star (he even read for me!) and I coughed a lot. And Jude (Borderlands) and Jennifer (Books Inc) took wondrous care of us. Thank you! Thanks so much to everyone who came. I hope I didn’t give any of you my dread lurgy.

I go sleep now.

Posted: NYC, 2:30AM

Off to the Aurealis Awards

Yup off to BrisVegas for Australian science fiction’s night of nights. Both Scott and me are up for an award—the same one. Wish us luck! (I hope Scott wins. If I win I’ll have to come up with a speech. Blerk!)

I’m not taking my computer with me. You’ll all have to suffer twenty-four hours without me. But keep the quessies coming! Will answer on my return.

All Around the World . . .

Looks like 2006 is going to be the year of jetlag travelling for me and Mr Westerfeld. I just updated our appearances pages and it was quite a shock. Brisbane! Bologna! New Orleans! Barely two weeks goes by without us chooffing off somewhere and that’s with only the rock-solid confirmed events listed.

Not that I’m complaining, it’s fantabuloso being asked to do so many different events. And I’ve never been to New Orleans before. How fascinating is that going to be? Very.

In other news: I continue to be very very glad that I am in Sydney, not New York City.


Hiroko Masuike for The New York Times

And Australia thrashes Sri Lanka in the second final. Andrew Symonds gets his first ODI century in Australia and put a lock on his status as biggest Australian yob hero since Boonie. Well, except for Shane Warne, and, oh, never mind. We loves you, Symonds!

Here’s hoping the third final will be a lot closer and not merely a matter of who wins the toss and elects to bat. Oh, how I miss the test cricket . . .

A Request: Recent Feminist Stories (updated)

A few weeks back I was asking about who the feminist sf writers are now. I had an ulterior motive: I’d just been asked to put together a panel for Madison’s Centre for the Humanities “Rooted Cosmopolitans” lecture series (if like me, you are Australian, you will find that title rather amusing). That panel is now a go:

“A Feminist Utopia in Madison? Global Communities, Science Fiction and Women”
24 May, 2006, 7:30 pm
Wisconsin Historical Society Auditorium, 816 State Street.
Madison, Wisconsin, USA
Open to the public, free of charge
Panelists: Elizabeth Bear, Karen Joy Fowler, Nalo Hopkinson, Justine Larbalestier (moderator), Meghan McCarron

I hope some of you can come to cheer us on (or heckle, whatever you prefer).

We’d like to refer to two stories during the panel: one older and one more recent. And we’d like to let everyone know before the panel what those stories are so they’ll have time to read them. The older story will prolly be Joanna Russ’ “When It Changed”. But we’re not sure about a more recent story. So:

    What’s the best recent feminist short story you’ve read?

Recent as in published this century and preferably this year or last. Even more points if you come up with a story that’s available online, which will make it easier for more people to be able to read it. We’re not considering stories written by the esteemed panellists.

Update: There will be a long list of essential feminist sf reading that will be a hand out at the panel. So if you have suggestions for that, fire away. If you can think of less obvious ones that would be extra helpful. You can rest assured that Suzy McKee Charnas, Ursula Le Guin and Joanna Russ will all be on the list.

YA Author Cafe

Next Tuesday at 8:30PM if you’re on the East Coast of the USA, or 3:30PM if you’re on the West Coast, or 12:30PM Wednesday if you’re in Sydney, or 2:30AM if you’re in Madrid, I’ll be doing the YA Author Cafe chat with Holly Black and Cassandra Claire. Our host will be the lovely Marlene Perez.

For those if you who don’t know—and I can’t imagine there are many of you—Holly Black is the author of the wonderful YA urban fantasies, Tithe and Valiant, not to mention the mega-selling Spiderwick books. Valiant, is one of the best reworkings of Beauty and the Beast I’ve ever read. It only came out last year yet I’ve already read it twice. If you haven’t read it then you really, really, really must.

And Cassandra Claire is the queen of Harry Potter fandom and the author of the very very funny Lord of the Rings Secret Diaries that went zooming around the internet a while back:“Still not king . . . “. She’s also just written a really fabby original YA novel, City of Bones, which, sad for you, doesn’t come out from Simon and Schuster until March 2007. Trust me, you have to read it! And when you do you’ll be screaming for the sequel. Not because it doesn’t standalone—it does—but because you’ll want more more more!

Anyways, to follow our chat and join in head here on Tuesday/Wednesday (don’t you all love timezones?).

Agnes Nieuwenhuizen

We’re in Melbourne, running around like crazies, and having fun. Spent all day yesterday at the fabulous School Libraries of Victoria conference, which was a blast. Shook me out of my jetlag. And Monday we get to hang out out with our Australian publishers at the Penguin offices, and also with the wonderful folks at the Centre for Youth Literature, Mike Shuttleworth, Lili Wilkinson and the fabulous Agnes Nieuwenhuizen. Agnes is profiled in today’s Age. She’s one of the most formidable, intelligent, engaged and engaging people I’ve met and today’s profile actually captures that.

Must dash!

My World Fantasy Con Schedule (updated)

Only two panels, so there’ll be heaps of time to hang out in the bar. Woo hoo!

Thursday 2:00-3:00PM
Gender-Bending Fantasy (Capitol A)
Inhabitants of fantastic worlds typically disregard the laws of physics, and frequently re-cast societal norms to fit an un-earthly reality. This panel will discuss recent fantasy fiction that challenges assumptions of sex and gender.
Terry A. Garey, Ellen Klages, Justine Larbalestier(M), Diane Martin, Jill Roberts

Friday 12:00-1:00PM
Images of Women in Fantasy Literature (Capitol A)
The home of WisCon, Madison is the center for feminism in fantasy and science fiction. We will discuss the roles women have had in fantasy since Tolkien. Fantasy has become populated with women, finally, but are they realistic women who provide good role models? Can modern feminist ideals be successfully inserted into a medieval story? What are the best examples of a feminist character in fantasy?
Kate Elliott, Anne Harris, Graham Joyce, Justine Larbalestier, Jane Lindskold

Update: Turns out that Megan McCarron’s WFC schedule is way cooler than mine. I’m so jealous! (Except for the Clarion one. Never went to Clarion, me.)

ball go fast

One of the freebie books I picked up in Atlantic City is The Believer Book of Writers Talking to Writers. In the intro it mentions that one of the interviews was conducted at a cricket match. So what did I do next? I leafed through every interview until I found that one, which turned out to be Adam Thirlwell talking to Tom Stoppard. But, here’s what a cricket tragic am I—once I got to the interview I skimmed impatiently through discussions of how Stoppard conceives and writes his plays, of Ionesco and Sappho and 9/11 and blah blah bloody blah, trying to find where they talk about the cricket being played in front of them.

I was beginning to think very poorly of Thirlwell and Stoppard. Very poorly indeed. How could you be at a match and discuss all sorts of arty farty blather, but not the actual cricket? How is that possible? For the love of Keith Miller!

Fortunately after pages of blather they finally get to the point, Stoppard applauds—“Oh that’s a just beautiful shot”—but then, horrifyingly fast, they reveal themselves as non-Cricket tragics. Thirlwell fails to discuss said cover drive and Stoppard says that:

Cricket seemed more or less pointless to me if you weren’t actually a wicket-keeper . . . It’s partly to do with the fact that every ball is frightening, if you’re keeping wicket, because there’s a good chance that you’ll have to deal with it if the batsman doesn’t. And, as you know, when it comes to catches being offered, probably three out of five go to the wicket-keeper, generally. So you feel that there’s a lot of responsibility on you, and one is constantly frightened of publicly shaming oneself—by dropping an easy catch or missing an easy stumping—which of course happened to me all the time, but nevertheless that’s what I liked doing.

While I, too, am fascinated by the wicketkeeper, I’m shocked that anyone could disparage all other fielders. I mean to say! What about the slips cordon? Silly mid on? Long leg? I’m not sure I feel quite the same way about Tom Stoppard now . . .

Wow

So, last night we got to hang out with the smartest group of folks I’ve hung out with in an age (and I hang with much smartness, let me tell you). At the Teen section of Elizabeth Library, New Jersey, we read a little bit, we told anecdotes, got asked very smart and very funny questions, I got to talk Spanish, and afterwards we got to eat great pasta and drink good wine and enjoy more ace conversation.

I read from my great Australian cricket mangosteen Elvis fairy novel, which I feared would tank with the seventeen-year-olds, but they laughed harder than the Brooklyn audience. Yay! I finally wrote something that cracks people up. And some of them knew about cricket. One guy plays it with his Pakistani neighbours. How cool is that? And many loved basketball and knew about the WNBA, not just the NBA! Heaven.

Scott read from Pretties which kind of tanked, and then from Peeps, which went over huge guns. He read about toxoplasma and there was much speculation about who has the parasite and who doesn’t. (Don’t know what I’m talking about? Then you’ll have to read the book, won’t you?) So many of them had read at least one of Scott’s books. One had read all of them and was full of smart questions. I made Scott do his Donald Duck voice and it slayed them best of all (he can harmonise with himself—next time you see him, just ask—he loves to perform on command). There was a queue of people wanting to have their photo taken with Scott. How fab is that?

And at the end, the library gave everyone a copy of one of my books (they had a choice of Magic or Madness or Magic Lessons—yup, Penguin genorously gave them a whole stack of galleys) and one of Scott’s many books. Though some tried sneakily to take two of Scott’s books. The competition over copies of Peeps was intense. We signed for all of them and thus got to talk one on one to everyone. Great idea, no? It was fabulous fun and I want to do it again.

Have I ever mentioned how much I love libraries? And librarians? And people who love libraries and librarians? No? Well, I really, really, really do.

Atlantic City? No, thanks. (updated)

I don’t want to rubbish a whole city, especially when I was only there for a few hours, but Atlantic City is an erky perky bleah of a place. Friends warned me it was a shithole—I had no idea they were being kind. It’s ugly, full of the most hideous buildings ever built and populated by zombie gamblers, who are served by an army of twelve-year-old incompetent staff. Once you’re inside one of the casinos it’s almost impossible to get out again. All signs lead to more gambling areas. I’m convinced that hell will be nothing but Atlantic City casinos.

This is heresy for an Australian, but, I hate gambling. I love cards and I’ll bet on them, but not with money. Never for money. Betting with money turns people into glassy-eyed zombies, and call me old-fasthioned, but I prefer my zombies in Romero films, thank you very much.

So why were we in Atlantic City? To attend the New Atlantic Independent Booksellers book fair, which other than its location in a hellspawn casino, was a lot of fun. We met the fabulous Penguin reps, Holly and Todd, who looked after us excellently well and told great publishing stories; we hung out with fellow YA writers, Maureen Johnson and Melissa Kantor; we both signed a bunch of our books, Peeps and Magic or Madness, and we snaffled up many free books. The gems of my pile—other than Maureen’s and Melissa’s books—were:

Small Steps by Louis Sachar, which is the sequel to Holes! Woo hoo! I have the sequel to Holes and you don’t! Ha! Ha! Ha!

The Weather Makers by Tim Flannery. I adore Flannery. He’s frequently interviewed back home about science and enviromental issues and is the smartest, most interesting, and clearest explainers of such issues I’ve ever heard. He also writes really, really well. I can’t wait to read this one, not least because I know it’s going to help me understand what happened with hurricane Katrina.

Today, we go back to New Jersey:

7:00-8:30PM
Elizabeth Main Library
11 S. Broad St., Elizabeth
New Jersey

We’ll probably read and we’ll definitely chat and generally be our entertaining selves. We’ve only done one library event before but it was fabulous, so I’m really looking forward to this.

Oh, and if you’re from Atlantic City? My condolences.

Update: I am very stupid. I wrote a blog entry about casinos, but my spam filter is set to nuke any comments that contain the word “casino”. I apologise to anyone who had their comment nuked. You can post now. Though given the vast tide of casino spam I get your comment will go through to moderation, which I truly rooly honestly will check. Rooly soon.

A Proper Con Report

I’ve been receiving some mail that is a little, um, miffed that my so-called con report doesn’t talk about any of the panels and readings I attended, or people I hung out with (not true: I mentioned Russ, Darren, Fiona and Richard), or give any sense of what the con was actually like.

a) That’s what my con was like: a cricketfest.

b) Sorry.

Here are people I hung out with who did write reports: Gwenda, Jed, Lauren, Scalzi.

Other than the cricket and catching up with my friends, my highlight was getting to hang out and gossip with Connie Willis—yes, I’m a pathetic fan girl—and you know what? As good a writer as she is I think I prefer listening to her telling stories. And I don’t care about what. She’s the best ranconteur I’ve ever met. And I know from ranconies.

CricketCon

Look, I know it was supposed to be all about science fiction blah blah blah, but I spent the five days of Glasgow’s WorldCon thinking, talking, breathing, and whenever possible (sadly not nearly enough) watching the cricket. Blissful. And I even had the luxury of being able to talk about it with actual Australians! Thanks to Russ and Darren and Fiona and the rest of the many Aussies I wasn’t stuck talking about it with gloating poms preening about their victory barely snatched from the jaws of defeat. (Though to be honest my best cricket convos were with Justina‘s fabulous and very English husband, Richard.)

Almost as good, I got to read about it in actual offline newspapers. There are some good things to say about the New York Times but the coverage of cricket is shockingly inadequate. Not quite as bad as their coverage of the women’s basketball, but bad. The Guardian on the other hand. Ah, what a great great newspaper. Pages and pages and pages all about Freddie and Shane and Messers Ponting and Strauss and the rest of them. Some of it writ by the incomparable Gideon Haigh (bless him).

The second test was unbeliveably exciting: Australia and England in their different ways managed to make a dog’s and an angel’s breakfast of it. In the end I’m glad England won.

Yup, you heard me.

England has gone cricket mad. Sales of cricket gear is through the roof, littlies are signing up to play cricket at their local clubs in record numbers, pubs are full to overflowing of people piling in to follow the day’s play. A dying sport has been revitalised. I’ve said it before I’ll support the baggy greens with my dying breath, but I love cricket above all.

Just Quickly

We’re in Glasgow. It’s gorgeous and fun and you just can’t get bored by Charles Rennie Mackintosh.

Trip so far:

London: great (though bloody expensive) food (Niki and Lauren & Andrew have been most excellent guides), brilliant markets, cheap clothes (bought the most gorgeous 15 pound skirt). It’s not the city I remember, though I did get some awe-inspiring rudeness—so it hasn’t completely changed. Best restaurant was David Thompson’s Thai one in Soho (I forget the name). Thompson’s Australia’s guru of Thai food. Was wonderful watching Lauren and Andrew’s delight in finally trying decent Thai food. I also gave them their very first mangosteens. Heavenly!

Glasgow: gorgeous, love all the Rennie Mackintosh everywhere. Had the most brilliant black pud and organic cider at Cafe Gandolfi. Cider in the UK is the best I’ve had in my entire life. Superb.

And tonight WorldCon begins. In the meantime the second test is on the tellie and Warne is bowling beautiful.

This is the life.

(Internet access continues very intermittent.)

(Oh and the time date for this is NYC time. Couldn’t be arsed changing it. Time here is 2:34PM.)

My World Science Fiction Convention Schedule

Yes, like everyone else in the entire sf world, I will be jetting over to Glasgow to partake of science fictiony thingies for several days at the World Science Fiction Convention. I’ll hang out with me mates, meet new people, and spend a lot of time in the bar watching England being destroyed by Australia in the second test at Edgbaston. Can’t wait. (I’m just sad that it won’t be in an English bar. Fortunately there’ll be enough English sf fans around that my gloating enjoyment of their team’s destruction will have an audience. In fact I’m going to greet every new person by asking if they’re English or not. And if they are, I’ll say, “Cricket. Ashes. Ha ha ha!”)

Friday 2:30pm Reading

I’ll read some stuff. Maybe from Magic or Madness, or Magic Lessons (the sequel to Magic or Madness—the reading will contain no spoilers), or I could read from my brand new novel which no one knows nuthink about and I’ve never read out loud to anyone but me spousal. Dunno. I’ve got half an hour, but that’s ridiculously long. I don’t like to read for more than 15 minutes, that way me and me audience (both of us) can go to the bar and watch England being destroyed in the second test.

Saturday 12:00 noon Feminism as Setting

Trudi Canavan
Anne K. Gay (M)
Jon Courtenay Grimwood
Mari Kotani
Justine Larbalestier
Ruth Nestvold

Description: Feminism is no longer the story, instead it’s the setting—what has this meant for feminist writers?

My take: Huh? I don’t agree with the premise. Feminism can be both setting and story, these are not contradictory terms. Plus it will be tricky to work a discussion of the cricket in.

Sunday 11:00am The 1950s, 50 Years On

Gail Dana
Irma HirsjSrvi
Justine Larbalestier
Greg Pickersgill
Mark Rich (M)

Description: The 1950s saw the Golden Era of Science Fiction film and the blossoming of writers such as Asimov, Sturgeon, Dick, Farmer, Walter M. Miller and Poul Anderson. What do we think of them now?

My Take: How could you list the best of the 1950s sf writers and not include Alfred Bester? Or Theodore Sturgeon? Or Margaret St. Clair? I’ll argue that sf writing in the 1950s was indeed a golden age, the period when sf turned its attention to the social sciences and examined social issues more than ever before. It’s often argued that that didn’t start happening until the 1960s which is crap. Also the 1950s saw some of Keith Miller‘s finest batting and bowling.

See you in Glasgow.

Bibs and Bobs

Working hard thus am not so bloggery as usual. Other than the novel I’m writing here’s what’s up in Justineland:

Daphne Lee has posted the unedited (and illustrated) version of her interview with me where I persist in getting the name of Samantha from Bewitched‘s grandmother wrong (got all that?). Daphne reports that Magic or Madness sold out in Kuala Lumpur the week the interview appeared in The Star. How stupendous is that?

Last night the New York Liberty beat the Houston Comets in overtime in Houston. Scott and me, we was screaming at the television like you wouldn’t believe. So happy! And as usual when the Liberty win everybody played their part. They are so teamy and ball-sharey and good. And now they’re better than 500 for the season. Being a Liberty fan is all about the ups and the downs. Thankfully they’re a bit more uppy at the moment. Next live game is Friday. Can’t wait! Season tickets make me happy.

The last two days of the Tour have been heart-stoppingly good. I don’t ever want it to end.

Many of my Oz sf friends are in Melbourne having a really good time. I am not even slightly jealous. Honest.

Write now. Many words.

How to Get an Agent—a New Musing

I’ve just put up a new musing responding to that much asked question:

How to Get an Agent

The short answer is that there is no one way to get an agent. Luck and hard work both play their part. But first you have to figure out whether you’re ready for representation. Don’t even think about pursuing agents until you have a finished novel. And make sure that novel is as good as you can possibly make it. Then make it a whole lot better. Rewrite and rewrite and rewrite and then rewrite some more before you send it to anyone. And, yes, this does apply to you. And yes it applies to non-fiction proposals too. Even though you don’t need a completed book you do need the best proposal you can possibly write.

Continue reading How to Get an Agent.

Sledging

I adore the way the oz media runs articles on sledging for the sole purpose of repeating some of the choicer examples. This one’s my current favourite ’cause it doesn’t bother pretending to be against it, plus it repeats my favourite anti-W. G. Grace sledge.

What do you reckon my chances are of getting some sledging going on science fiction panels at this year’s WorldCon? That’d liven them up quicksmart, not to mention preventing Gwenda’s death declaration from coming true.

Only at B.E.A.

So to be all author promotery and stuff at book expo america, Scott made up t-shirts for the both of us. Mine had the cover of magic or madness on the front and on the back quotes from my starred reviews. Nobody seemed to notice my t-shirt until we were waiting outside the convention centre surrounded by great piles of our book expo booty (yes, many, many books), looking like Penguin books roadies (Peeps and MorM are published by Penguin). A woman came up to me and pointed to my t-shirt and said, “I loved that book.”

“Really? I’m so pleased.”

She nodded emphatically. “I gave it a great review for booklist.”

“You mean this review?” I asked, turning around to show the back of my t-shirt.

“Oh my god,” she said, “that’s my review!”

“Thank you so much,” I said. “I really appreciated it.”

She looked a little confused.

“It’s my book. I’m Justine Larbalestier.”

Double-take. “No! Wow!”

She looked across at Scott wearing his Peeps t-shirt. “I just got that book to review. I also gave one of his earlier books a starred review. So Yesterday.”

“I loved that review,” Scott said. “Thank you!”

Double take. “You’re not Scott Westerfeld!”

Scott nodded. “I am.”

“You two know each other?” Another double take. “You’re friends?”

“We’re married,” I said.

“Oh my! What a powerhouse.”

Scott and our editor, Liesa Abrams, laughed. I blushed.

Meeting Jennifer Matson was my favourite b.e.a. moment. It was fab to finally be able to tell her how much I appreciated her review. it wasn’t just that she loved my book, it’s that she really understood my book. It meant a lot to me and it was a thrill to be able to tell her so.

Mid-Career Writers

For the last few years Pat Murphy has organised a closed session at WisCon for writers who are in the middle of their career and need a space to talk about the issues that involves. The first problem in doing this was deciding what exactly a mid-career writer is. They decided that you have to be five years out from your first professional sale to attend.

Scott Westerfeld went to the first two workshops and got to discuss Secret Writers’ Business with some of my favourite writers in the entire world. Afterwards he and many of the others were red eyed and seemed to have this new and amazing bond. I confess I felt a pang of jealousy, but I knew I didn’t belong in that room. At the time of the first workshop I’d published a non-fiction book and had one semi-pro sale of a short story. Now, I’ve sold three novels, one of which has been published and I still don’t belong in that room.

Pat Murphy has now come up with a much better definition of a mid-career writer: someone who’s had at least one book remaindered. Ouch.

This WisCon I was involved in several conversations about the problems of being a mid-career writer usually with a bunch of writers who’d all been in the game much longer than me. In one conversation I started burbling on with first-novelist enthusiasm about the business cards I’d printed up, visiting bookstores, and other bits and bobs I’ve been doing to promote Magic. Their eyes glazed over. "Stuff business cards," their body language said. They started to talk about what to do when you’re remaindered, or when you’re told that you’ll have to change your name if you want to sell books for more money. Oh, I realised once again, I am not a mid-career writer.

Here’s why a closed discussion is necessary. People at my stage of their career just slow the conversation down. First-time novelists just don’t get where the mid-career writer is at. Neither do writers who are unpublished. Every time published writers try to discuss the problems with their publishing career online someone comes along (often way more than one person) and flames them. "You should be grateful to be published at all!" "I know loads of brilliant writers who can’t even get an agent!" Blah, blah, blah. Look at the vitriolic attacks on Jane Austen Doe.

I was in my thirties when I started making professional sales. I started sending my stories and poetry out when I was fifteen. I know just how hard it is to get published. I know several unbelievably talented writers struggling to get their work into print. That’s a problem. It just happens to be a different problem to those that mid-career writers have. It’s also a problem if your advances and sales are going down with each successive book (despite them being the very best books you can write). Writers in that position need to be able to talk to their peers without gormless first novelists burbling on about business cards or frustrated unpublished writers bitching at them.

I have a couple of friends who have been very successful with their careers and are now getting big advances, being pursued by Hollywood, sent on book tours, the works, and guess what? There are problems involved with success. The two most successful writers I know have barely been able to write a word in the last year. The amount of publicity they have to do for their publisher has increased by a factor of ten, as has the amount of mail they get, and books they’re called on to blurb. They’re barely home. They’re exhausted. They’ve forgotten what their families look like. But they can’t complain because the most common response they get is: "I wish I had your problems!" which is the same as saying shut up.

Supporting yourself as a writer is a difficult, fraught business with all sorts of different problems at every stage. If you say as an unpublished writer, "I don’t want to hear about your problems! You’re published! I have nothing!" you’re cutting off your nose to spite your face. If you go on with your career, one day the problems of a mid-career writer will be your problems. The book that you have slaved over that is as good a book as you can make it, will die in the markerplace, will be remaindered. When that happens I doubt that you will consider yourself lucky to have been published at all.

So it’s probably worth listening—without envy—to those whose careers are further along than your own.

New York City, 2 June 2005

Wiscon Answers (sort of)

I’ve had a few puzzled emails wondering

a) why I’m hectoring people into taking the WisCon survey?

b) what the hell is WisCon anyway?

Funny you should ask.

a) I’m on the convention committee for WisCon. I help put it on, by organising the readings programme and doing some other bits and pieces for programming. I really want to know what people thought of the readings and the general programming and I want to know how we can do it better. This is my favourite convention in the world, we do our best to make it as wonderful as possible, but don’t always succeed. The survey form is the best way of letting us know how to fix what’s broke, and tell us about what’s working.

b) WisCon is the leading feminist science fiction convention in the world (yes, there is more than one). It’s a tonne of fun, and all my favourite (mostly) US sf friends attend.

Wiscon Survey–Do it! Do it! Do it!

You can find the survey form here. If you attended WisCon this year please fill it out and be honest–we really want to hear about your bad experiences as much as your good. The survey is all about making WisCon the very best con it can be. Yes, I just filled it out myself. On your bikes!

Do Not Listen to Gwenda Bond

The panel is not dead. If Gwenda actually explains what she means by such a ridiculous statement, I’ll explain why she is wrong.

For those of you who do not fritter away countless days of your lives going to science fiction conventions: a panel is a discussion consisting of a few people (usually about five) sitting behind a desk in front of an audience nattering on about something for (usually) an hour.

Slightly Less Wimpy

Tonight I have managed staying awake until 2:50AM. Well, that is the time at this moment. I am bedward headed, but not quite there yet. (Shelly, I am but a sliver of my former self. Apologies.)

Things I learned at WisCon today (or, er, yesterday):

Robin McKinley and Scott Westerfeld have completely different modes of writing. Scott’s is more sensible, but Robin’s sounds like a whole lot more fun.

Ex-friend Mely might possibly regain friend status. maybe. If Serenity is never mentioned. Ever.

Doselle is the same age as me! And Lauren.

Good wine that costs money is way better than free cheap beer, especially when drunk with the likes of Chris & Gwenda.

Elad is a darling.

Pan Morigan is amazingly talented and, on top of having a divinely gorgeous voice, she can play the accordion!

Pizza at 2AM tastes way better than it actually is.

Sleep is good.

That is really, really all.

I am old

It’s 1AM at Wiscon (no, I haven’t bothered to change this blog to Madison time, it’s still on NYC time) and I’m about to go to bed despite the many parties raging on the 6th floor. This is because I am old now, not because I’m avoiding ex-friend Mely and her Serenity keychain of taunt.

Things I learned on the first official day of Wiscon:

Frank Lloyd Wright was crazy.

The cover of Kelly Link’s new book is beautiful.

Pan Morrigan went on tour with Bobby McFerrin and she’s giving a free concert here at WisCon on Saturday at 10:30PM.

Ted Chiang starts stories by writing the last paragraph first.

Maureen McHugh starts at the beginning and has no idea where she’s going until she gets there.

That is all. I am old and must sleep now.

Back in Madison

So here I am back in Madison, Wisconsin for the annual feminist sf convention, WisCon. I just figured out that this is my seventh WisCon, while that’s nothing compared to the folks who’ve come here since the very first one way back in the olden days, it’s pretty damned amazing. There’s no other gathering like this of any kind that I’ve been to that many times. Such a committment!

Not only have I been coming here since 1996, I’ve also been actively involved on the convention committee. First organising the academic programming, and for the last few years, the readings programme, (that is organising the writers who want to read their work aloud for the enjoyment of the rest of us). In the hotel car on the way here from the aiport I got to overhear two of my readers discussing their preparation for their reading. (Don’t worry, I’d already outed myself as the person who organised the readings–I wasn’t spying.) One had read her piece out loud more than ten times! She was determined to have it fit the short time allocated to her and have it make sense. Not easy when you’re reading something from a larger piece. I could have hugged her! That’s just what I want my readers to do. Realise that they’ve got an audience, work on their pieces to make sure they’re not too long, or too boring, get them just right. Those two readers had never been to WisCon before and were nervous and excited and I wanted to hug them for that too. There’s nothing like your first WisCon.

And for the first time ever the con hotel (it’s been in the same hotel for a very long time now) has wireless throughout. I ask you is that a good thing? I mean here I am sitting in my hotel room blogging when I could be out enjoying the beautiful day and buying the damn toothpaste we forgot. Well, it did just enable me to do some actual work, ie send off the last essay of Daughters of Earth to Wesleyan Uni Press. A damn fine essay it is too. In fact, the whole collection is so much better than I’d hoped for (and, trust me, my hopes were high!). I feel like hugging all my contributors too. Hell, WisCon makes me want to hug everyone in the whole world and it hasn’t even started yet.

Here’s to another fabulous WisCon and I hope the newbies have as good a time as I know I will.

Wiscon

So I just started this new blog thingie and now I’m going to the “leading feminist science fiction convention in the world” known as WisCon. I’ll be away for a week and I haven’t made up my mind whether to take my computer or not. I’ve taken it in the past and done bugger all work. Anyways I’m unlikely to blog, but you never know.

Here’s my schedule for anyone else who’s going:

Promoting Your Novel
Sunday, 2:30-3:45 p.m. in Senate B
John M Scalzi, James F. Minz, Justine Larbalestier, Eileen Gunn, M: Liz Gorinsky

Everyone knows that the vast majority of published novelists do not get sent on book tours or make appearances on “Oprah” and “Good Morning America.” So what should the rest of us be doing to promote our novels? What are the best ways to let people know our novels exist?

“Rewrite” is a Four-Letter Word
Sunday, 4:00-5:15 p.m. in Conference Room 3
Nisi Shawl, Katya Reimann, Sarah Monette, Laurie J. Marks, Justine Larbalestier

Some folks actually enjoy rewriting; to others it is a painful chore. All agree it’s necessary. What techniques, attitudes, and approaches can lessen the negative aspects and increase the effectiveness of rewriting?

Pretty Magic Butlers of Roanoke
Sunday, 10:00-11:15 p.m. in Conference Room 2
Gwenda Bond, Justine Larbalestier, Scott Westerfeld, Ysabeau Wilce

Young adult fiction comes in many forms. Some of it involves the Pretty Magic Butlers of Roanoke who will read for your pleasure and offer spectacular cookies and prizes. The main prize is a limited edition chapbook (which is absolutely gorgeous) of work by the four of us. Only six exists in the entire world!

The SignOut
Monday, 11:30am-12:45pm in Capitol Room

A whole bunch of writers including me signing their books for you. Also much weary hanging out and gossiping.

Hope to see youse lot in Madison!

An Eoin Colfer, Scott Westerfeld and Me Event

This Sunday, Mother’s Day, I believe (hi, Jan!), me and Scott Westerfeld and Eoin Colfer (!) will be doing an event at Books of Wonder, the children’s book shop on 18 W. 18th St New York, NY (cross street: Fifth Avenue). We’ll be there from 1PM to 3PM. The event’s free and it’ll be fun—if you’re in the area come join us.

For those of who don’t know, Eoin Colfer is one of the best-known, best-selling, and popular writers of children’s books around. His Artemis Fowl books have put him up there with Lemony Snickett, Holly Black & Tony DiTerlizzi, Garth Nix and Jonathan Stroud. Exalted company indeed. It’s quite the honour for a total beginner in the genre like me to be on the same billing. Here’s hoping I’ll be able to impress one or two of Colfer’s legion of fans enough that they’ll want to check out my book. Fingers crossed and gulp.

I can’t tell you exactly what we’ll be doing because I’m not entirely sure. Books of Wonder events are varied and as the name of the shop would suggest—wonderful. I’ve seen writers and artists do short readings, discuss their books, their children, their life, interrogate their readers in the audience, draw the audience, answer questions, juggle and tap dance (okay, I may have made up the last two). I’m hoping this Sunday will be more of a laid-back chatting thing. I have no problems gasbagging about Magic or Madness, but for some reason I get very nervous when I’m asked to read from it. Nope, I don’t understand it either. I’m sure Eoin Colfer has no such problems, and I know Scott doesn’t. And this recent article full of advice on how to read in public has only made me more nervous.

Books of Wonder is my favourite bookshop in New York City. It’s huge, beautiful, full of books I’ve read or want to read, the staff know their stuff and are sweethearts. The shop is owned by Peter Glassman who has an encyclopediac knowledge of children’s literature and does his level best to read everything new that comes out. An impossible task, but if anyone gets close it’s him (or Joe Monti the children’s and YA book buyer for Barnes and Noble).

One of the things I love best about Peter and his wonderful shop, is the way they support writers. Books of Wonder has an event two or three times a week for most of the year. If you live anywhere near NYC, or you’re visiting, and you have even a slight interest in childrens and YA books you have to visit. And if you’re not being showered (or showering your mother) with presents and attention this Sunday why not stop by around 1PM?

See you there!

New York City, 6 May 2005

Transmission Resumed

Yes, this site was down for almost forty-eight hours and my jlATjustinelarbalestier.com address with it. Yes, I was tearing my hair out. And my beloved stats took quite a dip (sob). If any important mail to me was returned, you can resend now.

Even without the whole site going off air, you’ll have noticed I haven’t been musing a whole lot of late. And if you’re a mate, you’ll notice I haven’t been so great about email. I’ve been deadline busy, volunteer work busy, and travelling far too much. This month things should calm down and I should be able to catch up on my life.

Now, back to the (possibly) final round of rewrites on Magic Lessons: they’re due tomorrow!

New York City, 1 May 2005

Noreascon Revisited

This year’s WorldCon was wonderful and, in stark contrast to last year’s, beautifully organised. Not once did I show up to a panel only to be told it had happened three hours earlier in a completely different room. My only snafu was that word didn’t get to the other panellists on "What Should Good Fantasy Do?" that I was unable to attend. This, compounded with my non-attendance of parties that night (I was too knackered), led to a rumour that I was dead. My first such rumour!

Charles, Delia, Eliani, Eileen, Ellen, the other Ellen, Jonathan, Karen, Kelly, Lauren, Liza, Mari, Martha, Sarah, Scalzi, Suzy, Tom, Tricia and many, many others) met some fabulous new ones, such as Justina Robson and Jane and Shara Zoll, and best of all finally got beyond "Hi" status with Karen Meisner. In fact we got so far beyond it that Lauren, Karen and I started planning a ConHunks calendar. (We won’t embarrass anyone by telling you who made our final cut.) But enough name dropping—Mely says it’s boring, she only wants to hear about the panels. Be warned though, I didn’t take notes and I have a shit memory:

Thursday 12:00 noon "Archetypes in SF: First Contact"
Jim Frenkel (Moderator)
Walter H. Hunt
Ed Lerner
Karen Traviss
Justine Larbalestier
In culture clashes between aliens and humans, the humans aren’t always the good guys…..discuss the archetype, the ways it’s been used, and how to turn it upside down.
It was kind of slow. One of the first panels of the convention with the panellists (most especially me) all clearly trapped in a what-do-I-do-on-a-panel-exactly head space. But by about the midpoint we were firing on more than half a cylinder. I managed to mention both the stories I wanted to (Tiptree’s "And I Awoke on the Cold Hill’s Side" and Eleanor Arnarson’s A Woman of the Iron People) as well as getting in a plug for Gwyneth Jones’s White Queen. There was much talk about how to write convincing aliens and a wee bit on colonialism.

Thursday 4:30pm Justine reads for half an hour from her coming-out-next-March novel, Magic or Madness
Or, um, fifteen minutes. I think it went okay. Fifteen people showed up and none of them left mid-reading. Certainly it was less traumatic than my last reading. I spent the remaining fifteen minutes fielding questions and nattering about writing the novel and my insane decision to have Australian vocab, grammar and spellings for the two Aussie pov characters and US for the US one. This has led to much copy editing and proof-reading pain. If my subsequent readings are as unfoul as this one I imagine that in about thirty years I’ll start enjoying them. The best bit was this lovely New Zealand woman (whose name I didn’t catch) who told me she only came to my reading because she thinks I have a fabulous name (I hope discovering I’m Australian wasn’t too awful a shock for her). Here’s hoping the attractiveness of my name will translate into copious book sales: "Hey check out this author’s name! I am so buying this book." The second best bit was Cory Doctorow’s deep shock that I squandered fifteen—fifteen whole minutes—nattering with the audience when I could’ve been reading to them. I swear I’ll never do it again, Cory. Honest.

Thursday 7:00pm "The Seven Deadly Sins of SF and Fantasy"
Geary Gravel
Rosemary Kirstein
Justine Larbalestier (M)
Scott Westerfeld
Admit it—some SF motions just don’t make sense…and a lot of them become standard background elements in the genre. Discuss a bunch of them (well, at least 7—and invent some new ones of your own, if you want!), why they’re so terrible, and how they get established. Is it just that People Don’t Think, or are there other reasons for these lousy ideas?
This started off great. All the panellists on the same page about what pisses them off: universal translators, matter transporters (like on Star Trek) that don’t completely transform the societies they’re used in, worlds without money that seem to have no economy of any kind, fantasy novels supposedly set in other worlds that just happen to be like Disney’s version of fairy tale Europe. Then Scott made the fatal mistake of mentioning wheat. Turns out there were a whole bunch of people in the audience who are deeply attached to wheat and no matter how many times we tried to explain that the point was not to get rid of wheat per se, but that the mere fact of including wheat in a Medieval world meant to be non European kind of defeats the point. As Scalzi says: the panels "I did see were memorable, particularly the one on literary clichés, in which we learned that apparently a substantial number of readers really really really like wheat, and are prepared to defend it against all those who would seek to expunge it from the various fantasy worlds. So those writers who yearn for a gluten-free universe, beware." Someone else out there in the blogsphere (lost the link, sorry) also noticed our pain and said that all the panellists looked like we desperately wished to be anywhere but sitting up on the podium dealing with irate questions about the sanctity of wheat. Tragically for Scott the wheat meme went on to haunt him for the rest of the con. He is now considering going on the Atikin’s diet.

Friday 12:00 noon "Archetypes in Fantasy: The Princess, Alone"
Ellen Datlow
Michelle Sagara West (M)
Jo Walton
Justine Larbalestier
Despite our consensus before starting the panel that none of us had a clue what to say, this panel went well. Largely because of the utterly wonderful Jo Walton. I plan to buy all her books. She has the most wonderful deep resonant voice and fabulous Welsh accent and she said really really smart things about all manner of subjects including what she called the weight of story. How hard it is to write against traditions filled with passive sleeping women and active rescuing men. That said, the first half of the panel was concerned with pointing out that there are alternative traditions with active princesses.

Friday 1:00pm "The Two Cultures in F&SF: Science Confronts the Humanities"
Ctein (M)
Matthew Jarpe
Nancy Kress
Justine Larbalestier
Decades ago, C.P. Snow defined the "Two Cultures" of technical intellectuals and literary intellectuals. The split is still with us. How does it influence our fantasy and science fiction? What works, what authors manage to bridge the gap? What works or authors make it deeper?
For some reason I can barely remember this panel. I honestly have no idea what anyone said except that I managed to sneak in a crack about the US allergy to the theory of evolution and Nancy got in a crack about deconstruction and a lovely woman in the audience answered my plaintive pleas for popular science book recommendations.

Friday 4:00pm "Do Women Write Differently?"
Suzy McKee Charnas
Theodora Goss
Eileen Gunn
Elizabeth Anne Hull (M)
Justine Larbalestier
This was just wonderful and no surprise: look at the panellists (myself modestly excluded)! Geniuses all! We laughed, we cried. Dora Goss tellingly pointed out that perhaps a more interesting title for the panel would have been: "Do Men Write Differently?" We all pointed out that the answer very much depends on which women and which men they’re writing differently than. Eileen, Betty and Suzy all had funny yet horrifying anecdotes of being "praised" for writing like men. We had a lively discussion about James Tiptree, Jr., ably abetted by the knowledgable, engaged, and smart audience who filled the room to the point of overflowing. And I got to use Kelly Link’s line that women write differently because they tend to do it sitting down.

Saturday 4:00pm "Lyrical Language"
Fruma Klass
Kelly Link
Terry McGarry
Delia Sherman
Justine Larbalestier (M)
Is it a good idea to bounce the reader out of the story by making
her aware of how beautifully you write? Define "beautifully." And,
under any circumstances, is "style" really so necessary?
This was my second favourite panel and my toughest moderating job. Fruma Klass came armed with lots of research and some wonderful quotes she wanted to read out loud. This is not normally how these panels work. I was worried about getting the balance right between not having Fruma read for too long and lose the audience, but still giving her space to do her thing. Fortunately her quotes were wonderfully well chosen and the other panellists had fun bouncing off them. We decided that separating "style" from "story" is a fool’s errand. Kelly and Delia spoke eloquently about the untransparency of so-called transparent writing. The audience was lively and engaged and didn’t mention wheat once.

Sunday 1:00pm "The Justine and Scott Grand Literary Beer"
Justine Larbalestier and Scott Westerfeld
This too was fun. The two of us got to talk about our favourite subjects: us and writing to a table full of people who were interested in having us do so. Our audience included a few die hard Westerfeld fans, some folk who’d seen us on panels and thought we seemed interesting, including two who were at the wheat-is-sacred panel. I’d definitely do a literary beer again even though we didn’t manage to talk about truly important things such as Elvis, Buenos Aires, interface design flaws, women’s basketball, or cricket.

New York City, 8 September 2004

Why Do You Go to So Many of Those Convention Thingies?

It’s a less than three days until the Memorial Day weekend, so me and Scott, we’re all set to head off to WisCon, the greatest convention in the known universe. We’ve turned down a bunch of invites here in Manhattan and our explanation for saying no has, as usual, raised eyebrows. Most of our NYC friends aren’t part of the sf or publishing world and some are puzzled by our disappearing periodically to attend conventions. Disappearing to Sydney for months and years at a time they understand (sort of—do New Yorkers ever really understand people who live anywhere but NYC whenever they possibly can?), but sf conventions? In the Midwest? Huh?

The short answer as to why we go to sf conventions in general and Wiscon in particular is:

a) to socialise

b) to sell books and thus have money to pay rent, eat food and go to sf conventions

The long answer:

The sf community is huge and widespread, conventions are the best way to catch up with our sf friends. Yup, it’s true, cons are an excuse to hang out and party. There are parties every night so—unless you’re stupid enough to host one of them—you don’t have to pay for a drink or (it being Wisconsin) for cheese all weekend long. Free booze! Free cheese! Is this heaven? I now have many close, close friends I only see for four or five days a year (tops) and who seem to live on a booze and cheese-only diet (extreme Atkins) which is really weird if you think about it too much (the only seeing each other a few days a year, not the cheese and booze).

WisCon is like smart camp for grownups. You end up in the most amazing conversations about airships and cricket and Elvis and everything else that is good and wise, just standing in the queue for the toilet. WisCon is how I always imagined university would be (but wasn’t). Smart people arguing about smart things and not ever trying to hide how smart they are. There’s no anti-intellectualism at WisCon.

The smart camp activities, other than cheese and booze consumption and conversations while waiting to pee, are all part of the programming. I have to confess that WisCon is one of the few cons where I actually attend programming. For the uninitiated programming at an sf convention typically consists of discussion panels where a number of people sit behind a table on a podium and pontificate for an hour (or in the case of WisCon approx. 75 minutes) on a set topic with interruptions for questions from the audience.

Sitting in the audience for a bad panel is worse than being forced to watch the cast of Neighbours performing an opera by Phillip Glass. But shithouse panels tend to be few and far between at WisCon. Dunno why. Could it be the high quality of people who attend? (Truly you need exceptionally high intelligence and resourcefulness just to be able to successfully complete and submit the signup form.) Or perhaps it’s the incredible amount of work and effort that goes into putting the programming together? Or could it be the overconsumption of booze and cheese making everything seem more amazing than it is?

Being on a panel is way more fun than being in the audience for one. I adore those glorious minutes sitting up on a podium when it’s my job to rant. Yay! I enjoy it so much that I have taken to volunteering to moderate because it’s unhealthy how much I like talking up a storm on panels. I’m afraid I’ll go mad with the power and become a politician or something. Moderating is the only way I can control myself and let the others get a word in edgewise.

Of course, panels aren’t just fun, they’re also business. For writers who have the gift of the gab they’re a superb way of convincing people who haven’t read you that they really really should and preferably with a brand new copy of your book that they’ve just purchased in the dealers’ room. I’ve seen writers perform so well that suddenly all their books are sold out, not just at the con, but at every nearby book shop. Before a panel there were plenty of copies. Afterwards: not one. (Sadly, there are also writers who have the opposite effect, but of that the less said the better. Never do a panel when you’re in a filthy mood.)

Then there’s the readings: where writers read from their work in yet another effort to get the punters to buy books. Most reading streams at conventions are programmed last and consist of writers being put on wherever there’s a gap in their programme. This leads to someone reading a 60-page Elvish wedding scene from their large fantasy epic, even though that means they steal a whole chunk of time from the other two readers in their session who must then cut in half their dark and dirty sexual encounter between a cyborg warrior and a human munitions worker, and their slipstream reworking of The Idiot in first person and present tense set amongst a marauding zombie tribe. You’ll be surprised at how much that scenario doesn’t work for the audience.

It’s how it used to be done at WisCon until in a fit of insanity Scott and me took over. That’s right, we both love WisCon so much we’ve gotten involved helping run it (which I recommend to no one—just kidding). We will make the readings work, we told ourselves. We will make them perfect! We will make all of the writers happy! All of the time! Only to discover that it’s bloody hard work and not the best way to win friends and influence people. Apparently no one can make all the writers happy for even .0000000000000004 of a nanosecond. But, hey, we’re stubborn, one day it will work and then we’ll hand it over to someone else.

It’s definitely better than it used to be. The simple step of encouraging writers to read with writer friends and having a common theme has improved things out of sight. So has our friendly advice. Here’s Scott’s version that we sent to the readers this year:

Gentle WisCon Readers,

This is a more general email, one with a strident and hortatory tone. Gird yourself, and be assured that this missive is based on a wealth of past experiences, and contains no exaggerations. Reading and carefully digesting it will help the reading sessions go smoothly and fairly. You owe it to your reading mates and audience to do so.

1. Reading sessions are 75 minutes long. There are (generally) four readers per session.

2. Does this mean every reader gets 75/4 = 18.75 minutes? GOOD GODDESS, NO! Assume that the session will start five minutes late, and that five minutes will be consumed between each pair of readers by applause, chair shuffling, hemming and hawing. Because that ‘s the way it always happens.

3. Does this mean every reader gets to read for roughly 14 minutes? NO AGAIN! You have just under 14 minutes for EVERYTHING: introducing yourself, waving your book around, making jokes, plot synopses, finding your place, more hemming and hawing . . .

4. So BEFORE you get to Wiscon, carefully rehearse any preamble you intend to make about yourself, your career, what ‘s been going on in your story up to the point you ‘re reading from. (We’ve seen people do this for TEN WHOLE MINUTES before they actually start reading! This is not professional. It does not sell books. It wastes time. Rehearse and minimize.)

5. Even with all these preparations, do not assume that you can have the couch for more than 13 minutes (that ‘s right, another minute was lost as more people came in). That means ROUGHLY 1800 words, or 6-7 pages. But no formula is a substitute for timing yourself reading out loud, very slowly, all introductions included. Thirteen minutes, we say again.

6. Some of you will note that there is a fifteen-minute break between sessions. Can you use this “free” time to read more, extra, better? NO! THAT WOULD BE WRONG! This is time people need to wander around, invariably chatting to each other before getting to their next session. It is time needed for the next reading audience to trickle in and feel that they are in the right place. Reading during this time is in fact STEALING time from other sessions, into which your no-doubt rapt audience will blunder late and noisy. It may feel like a victimless crime, but it is a dreadful thing to do.

We apologize for the tone and capitalized words herein. If we have been rude, it is only to protect those of you who may be altogether too polite. And we ‘re sure you’ll all have huge audiences and great readings.

Scott & Justine

The other glorious features of WisCon are Ellen Klages and her Tiptree Auction Spectacular: Best Auction Mistress Ever. And—believe it or not—the guest of honour speeches, which are almost always amazing. They make you laugh, they make you cry, they make you start running bake sales and plotting world domination. They’re dangerous.

So that, my dear non-sf friends, is why we’re going to WisCon and why we go to sf conventions.

New York City, 25 May 2004

Death Under the Train

The train went over a bump. Scott shuddered. He said it felt like something had gone through the whole train. I felt nothing, too absorbed by Holly Black’s Tithe.

About a minute later the train stopped. The announcement that followed made no sense: something about a "trespass incident" and there being "no immediate danger" to the passengers. Not the most calming statement in the world.

"I think we hit someone," Scott said.

The man behind agreed, said he’d felt the train lurch. Someone else said there’d been four suicides on this stretch of track in the past month. One woman had been on the train for the last one. It had taken eight hours before they were transferred to another. Great.

This happened yesterday, on our way from Washington DC to New York City. We came to a halt in New Jersey just half an hour from home. The conductor confirmed that the train had hit someone. They didn’t know if the person was a suicide or not, but it was likely. The HazMat (Hazardous Materials) team had been called. Our train wasn’t going anywhere.

An hour later an empty New Jersey Transit train pulled up alongside our Amtrak Metroliner. It was announced that we would transfer to this train and that we must not under any circumstance touch both trains at once: "We don’t want anyone else to get hurt". The dire warning sounded kind of unnecessary, I couldn’t imagine the trains would be so close it’d be a problem.

I was wrong. I stepped down to the gravel, illuminated by the light of a green glow stick—giving the fleeting impression that we were on our way to a particularly isolated rave—and there was barely half a metre between the two trains. One inopportune sneeze and you’d’ve got yourself a nasty electric shock. I stepped up onto the less comfortable New Jersey Transit train quick and cautious as I could.

We sat with a woman who’d also been heading home from the World Fantasy Convention. Although we’d never met, we recognised each other from our orange-handled and remarkably well-made WFC canvas bags. The three of us spent the remainder of the journey gossiping about genre publishing, barely touching on what had thrown us together. The whole thing an inconvenience, a loss of an hour and a half.

Did the person who ended their life under the train think of that? They’d be a mangled corpse and the people on the train above would be bitching about their journey being delayed, not even knowing their name? The suicide’s massive egocentricity in disrupting the lives of not just their family and friends, but of a trainload of total strangers, echoed by the lesser egocentricity of those strangers who just wanted to be home.

But we did talk about what had happened. There just wasn’t much to say: Did you feel it or not? Was it a suicide or not? Would we find out what happened? I bet each and every one of us wondered who it had been.

I searched online today and found nothing.

While we were slowly making our way to Penn Station, most of the Metroliner’s crew were still there waiting for the HazMat team to be done. The two conductors at our end of the train were visibly shaken. Not wanting to be there, not wanting to be answering the same questions over and over again.

And what of the HazMat team? Does anyone ever become completely inured to clearing away human body parts? And how awful if you do become inured?

When I was a child living in the Northern Territory with my family, a man died on the railway tracks. He’d been a clown at the Mataranka Rodeo who’d gotten blind drunk after the show and fallen asleep on the tracks. The train was only used for freight and ran just once a week. The odds were in his favour, but his luck stank. He died instantly.

I used to have nightmares where me and my father found his body. The dreams were so vivid that for a long time I was confused and thought I had found his body, in three neat pieces, still wearing his clown makeup.

Last night he was in my dreams again. His first appearance in many years.

New York City, 3 November 2003

4 Nov 2003: Scott found this article which gives some details of what happened. We still don’t know whether it was an accident or suicide or who the man was.

World Fantasy Convention, Washington DC

Halloween Weekend 2003

Kelly Link and Lena DeTar look on as Justine Larbalestier and Gwenda Bond argue over who the real mastermind is.


Steve Pasechnick, Gwenda Bond, Cecilia Tan, Scott Westerfeld and Christopher Rowe dissect strange matter on the bed.


Tragically, Gwenda Bond and Kelly Link are unable to resolve their differences.


Kristen Lindvahl, Rick Bowes and Bill Shunn discuss their shared mormon past.

The 61st WorldCon: Torcon 3, Toronto, Canada, 28 August-1 September 2003

Science fiction conventions are strange and World SF conventions are stranger than most. For starters these so-called WorldCons are usually held in the USA. Of the 61 to date, only 13 were held outside the USA. They are predominately attended by people from the USA—even when they’re not held there. I swear there seemed to be as many folk from the USA as from Canada at this year’s WorldCon. But those gentle folk of the United States of America have long had difficulty with the meaning of the word "world". Apparently they think it’s a synonym for the USA or possibly North America. How else to explain "World" Series baseball?

At least WorldCons have an excuse for their use of the term "world". The first World SF convention was held in New York City in 1939, borrowing the title from the New York World’s Fair of 1939-1940. The Fair really did involve people from countries all over the globe. More than 60 nations were included: Chile, Portugal, Venezuela, France, Brazil, the Netherlands, the United Kingdom, Belgium, Canada, Argentina, Ireland, Norway, Italy, Romania, Turkey, Sweden, and Japan.

Increasingly WorldCons are earning their title, shifting from one non-USA WorldCon a decade, to four in the nineties (The Hague, Winnipeg, Glasgow and Melbourne). So far this century there’s just been TorCon 3 but in 2005 it will be Glasgow’s second chance to host a WorldCon, and if the eligible voters show any sense, the first Japanese WorldCon will be held in Yokohama in 2007.

Almost all of the 200 attendees of the first WorldCon were US citizens. They were all white and possibly as many as five of them were female. The majority were eighteen years old. At this year’s WorldCon there were around 4,000 of us. I hung out with people from Canada, Australia, Japan, Spain (hello Alejo!), the UK, and France. Many of them were female and some of them weren’t white. There were attendees whose time alive was numbered in weeks, and a few creeping up on a century of living.

Two attendees, Dave Kyle and Frederik Pohl, also attended the very first WorldCon (and many, many, many of the ones in between). Well, sort of, Fred Pohl was actually banned from attending the actual convention along with some other naughty New York Futurians. But he did hang out in the bar with the professional writers and claims that was far more fun than the official convention anyway. Based on my experience of conventions I don’t doubt it.

WorldCons are really many different cons all held at the same time. There’s filking (making up science-fiction related lyrics to well-known songs and then singing them), costuming, and media (film and television fans) and I’m sure many other streams I’m not aware of.

The days are filled with programming. Readings: if the reader is Terry Pratchett, Connie Willis, Kim Stanley Robinson, or China Mieville expect a room filled past bursting and hot as hades even with the AC on high; if it’s anyone else expect an icy room sparsely populated by the reader’s family and friends. I have known writers who got married and had children solely to ensure that they always have an audience of at least two. The magical moment happens on that one fine day when you give the first reading you’ve ever given where there are faces you’ve never seen before in the audience, expectant, waiting to be read to. That’s glorious.

Autograph sessions: an event where writers who aren’t those named above pray that they’re not stuck sitting next to them, twiddling their thumbs while poor Stan Robinson’s signing hand cramps so bad it looks like amputation may be the only remedy.

Then there are panels. These consist of three to six people sitting with microphones behind a big table in front of an audience that often knows as much, if not more, on whatever the topic is than the panellists. One of the panellists acts as moderator. A good moderator will only speak themselves if there’s a lull in the discussion. She’ll make sure all panellists get an equal crack at talking, coaxing the silent and keeping the brakes on the over-effusive. After 15 minutes or so she’ll open it up so the audience can take part, but not take over, unless they turn out to be more interesting than the panellists. Never moderate a panel on Buffy the Vampire Slayer or anti-Americanism. Never allow anyone shy or so self-obsessed they can’t shut up moderate a panel.

The best panel I attended at TorCon 3 was on baseball and science fiction. Who knew there was a connection? I attended in my dutiful spouse capacity fully expecting to be bored out of my skull. Instead I learned a lot about baseball, about sf baseball stories, and was able to convey—along with other helpful cricket afficionados on the panel and in the audience—that yes indeed, there is another sport that’s inspired a great deal of fiction and that’s complex, riveting and has many centuries of history. Frequent debates broke out as to what particular moment led to particularly disastrous "World" Series results. Though sadly the only names I recognised were Babe Ruth (baseball’s Don Bradman) and Joe DiMaggio (the guy who married Marilyn Monroe).

The panellists were knowledgeable, entertaining and witty, especially Rick Wilber—what a charming man. Eric M. Van moderated with enthusiasm revved to such a pitch that I worried that he might explode. He didn’t, managing to rein in himself, and include everyone else. Masterfully done. There is now talk afoot of putting together a baseball/cricket panel at WisCon, or next year’s WorldCon in Boston. Panellists would all take a crash course in the sport they are not familiar with and then, I fear, spend the panel explaining to everyone why their sport is better.

Typically, there are weddings at WorldCons, and this year being in Toronto, for the very first time there were same-sex weddings. Lots of very happy campers. A joy to see.

Aside from the official programming there’s also a certain amount of business going on—agents courting writers, writers pursuing editors—but it’s a very small part of proceedings. The dread truth is that most WorldCon attendees do very little business and rarely go to more than a handful of panels/readings etc, just the ones they or their family and friends are on. Most of us go to sf conventions to hang out with all those friends we only ever get to see at conventions, to make more friends (who we forlornly hope we’ll be able to remember when we run into them at the next convention), to attend all the parties with their bucketloads of free food and booze and if we’re very lucky hear Connie Willis telling stories. As is amply demonstrated in these photographs and these and these. The advent of the digital camera is a sad, sad thing. Stop already, people!

The big night of a WorldCon for everyone I know is the Hugo Awards night. But in keeping with the many-different-cons-within-a-con the costumers have their own night: the Masquerade where they get to show off their costumes—many of them jaw-droppingly incredible—and win prizes. For the filkers the whole convention is one continuous big night, where they sing their lungs out unendingly. Apparently many have learned how to sign solely to get them through the voiceless days that follow.

The Hugo Awards are given out once a year for different categories of fiction (short story, novelette, novella, novel); professional (editor, artist, semi-prozine and related book: usually non-fiction about sf or sf art books); and fan (fanzine, fan writer, fan artist). They are the sf award that has the biggest impact on sales.

The award itself is a great big rocket ship and everyone I know wants one. If you are merely nominated (and, as we all know, just being nominated is an honour) you get a wee little rocket ship pin. This year they were gold for the fiftieth anniversary of the Hugo Awards. I’m here to tell you that a little gold rocket ship is dead cool (especially when your friends only have the lame silver version) and they’ll be prying mine from my cold dead fingers.

Some of us were nominated and all of us had opinions about who should and who would win (frequently not the same thing). We also enjoyed casting judgement on the performance of the toastmaster (this year, Spider Robinson) and the various acceptance speeches. Spider Robinson was fabulous, opening proceedings with clever filk versions of "Live and Let Die" (Mote in God’s Eye) and "Fifty Ways to Leave Your Lover" (fifty ways to lose a hugo—I missed the verse about having a university press book). Jane Espenson accepting for her Buffy script was utterly charming though in truth just showing up would have charmed us. Most Hollywood types nominated for a Hugo haven’t a clue what it is and certainly don’t attend.

I adored George R. R. Martin torturing the best novel nominees with a witty though long (and if you’re waiting to find out if you’ve won an award—a half-second delay is too long) account of his own Hugo wins, lamenting that he had never won the Big One (best novel) only little ones (short story, novelette, novella). One day, I’m sure, he’ll get the full set.

The win that made me happiest was Emily Pohl-Weary winning for completing her grandmother, Judy Merril’s memoirs Better to Have Loved. Emily’s lovely and I happen to know that it was a very difficult, fraught task for her. Judith Merril was, of course, a longtime Toronto icon so what better place for her to be posthumously recognised?

I’m not usually a fan of WorldCons: too big, too hard to find your friends (hello, Elisabeth? Were you really there?), but I loved TorCon 3 and this despite the chaotic organisation—whereabouts and times of programming events changed hourly, gatekeepers zealously checking badges managed to exclude some big name writers like Pat Cadigan and Nalo Hopkinson—I guess I’m just a fan of chaos. Science fiction cons do chaos beautifully.

New York City, 4 September 2003

Brave Rabbits: the Carol Emshwiller and Ursula Le Guin Show

Saturday’s conversation between Carol Emshwiller and Ursula Le Guin was fabulous and moving and for me the highlight of the 2003 WisCon. Eileen Gunn fed them the occasional question, but mostly they chatted amongst themselves, covering writing about the recent war (Ursula needs to stew on things for a while, so hasn’t yet; for Carol the process is more immediate—she’s already sold a number of stories on the subject, at least one of which is in print), teaching the craft of writing (Ursula loves to steer her students towards contemplating the fine art of comma placement), raising childen while trying to write (apparently the trick is to get them to go to bed by 7:30pm) and a great deal more about the road they’ve had to hoe as writers. It was glorious wittnessing such a warm and easy friendship between two very different women. Ursula’s path has been for the most part golden (does anyone truly have an easy path?) with supportive parents and spouse, while Carol came to writing later, with little support and a certain amount of hinderance from her spouse. Her discussion of the difficulties of stealing time to write whle raising her children ("I felt like I couldn’t breathe," she said at one point, smiling) elicited hisses for her late husband from the audience, and yet there was no condemnation in her words nor even the faintest whiff of bitterness. Ursula claimed to be a rabbit in comparison to Carol’s bravery. Carol claimed that she too was a rabbit. John Kessel dryly pointed out from the audience that, if so, she was a very brave rabbit. The audience laughed a great deal, and I know that I was not the only one whose eyes filled with tears.

Carol is in her eighties and Ursula in her seventies. The average life expectancy of a woman in the USA is 79, so they’re doing well, but have hardly reached Guiness Book of World Records ages. So why the big deal? Carol and Ursula—at any age—are extraordinary people. Warm, witty, compassionate brilliant writers. Part of the big deal is that they are doing some of the best writing of their careers right now. They show that the life of a writer can just keep on going. If you’re healthy and still sparking on all cylinders—though both Carol and Ursula seem to have way more cylinders than most of us—you can write, and more importantly, you can keep getting better. Who doesn’t want to hear that message?

But what filled my eyes with tears as I listened to those two white-haired, sharp-witted, funny, funny women was that not only are they ubelievably cool folk that anyone would give their eyeteeth to hang out with but they run counter to the predominate images of old women we get in the west. Most of us under fifty have never seen anyone remotely like them on television, or on film. We were given no expectations as we grew up that old age for a woman is anything other than a time of horror, ugliness and stupidity. You’ll lose your looks (someone must’ve forgotten to tell Carol and Ursula about that one), your mind (ditto) and will either turn into a mean, screeching witch who eats children or a gentle, silver-haired Stepford grandma with an endless supply of home-baked cookies and homilies and little interest in anything other than her grandchildren.

Most of us in the west are afraid of old age. On Saturday, watching Carol and Ursula talk and laugh about their writing lives, for the first time in my life, I wasn’t remotely afraid.

Madison, Wisconsin, 25 May 2003